Moving On

If you ever thought that breaking someone's heart is easy and not that painful, you got it all wrong.
Because for me, whether it is a broken heart or breaking someone's heart is just the same. Sucks.
It took a long consideration, think and rethink. And absolutely not easy.
Take a look to those painful eyes and saying good bye is as worse as telling someone his death sentence.
And the worst part is, when you finally realized that everything you say will only make things worse. But you can't shut up.
I made a decision. If you think this is because I trapped in my past, you got it all wrong. I believe I moved on. But sometimes, there are things that can't be forced. That's why I made this decision.
A friend of mine said this to me;
"Chay mah ga tahan sendirian."
Well, I guess she's right. I can't stand being alone because loneliness is killing me. But I can see clearly now that life isn't all about having a boyfriend and having all my friends is enough to brighten up my day. So, I try to take it slow this time, I'll live for the moment and stop thinking too far ahead. Now, I can face the world and say, I am happy now. :)

*sighing*

if i remain silent, it doesn't mean i feel fine.
whether i don't ask, it doesn't mean i do not care.
maybe i'm scared about you or maybe it's just about me.

Believe it or not?

I am a sagittarius actually. I usually don't believe in myth, astrology,etc, but this one? I have to believe. Since I found this one is -almost- right. Well, to have some fun, it will do no harm, right? ;)

The yellow light for things that are so me.

The red light for things that, I really believe it's true. :p

SAGITTARIUS -The One that Waits (11/22-12/21)
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. The one and only. 7 Years of bad luck if you do not repost.

and here are the rest of the others....

CAPRICORN - The Aggressive One (12/22-1/19)
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. EXTREMELY SEXY. Predict future. Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it..Cool. Loves to own Geminis’ in sports. Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

GEMINI - The Liar (5/21-6/21)
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships,
Addictive. Loud.

AQUARIUS - The Slut (1/20-2/18)
Great talker. Passionate. Laid back. Knows how to Have fun. Loves to sleep around. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Loud. Loves being in short relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Easy to find. Good when found.

SCORPIO - The Gorgeous One (10/23-11/21)
Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they believe. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser ever. Beautiful personality. Stubborn. Amazing in bed. A caring person. Lovable. One of a kind. Gorgeous Smile. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth!

PISCES - The Addiction (2/19-3/20)
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative. Romantic. Caring.

LEO - The Cool One (7/23-8/22)
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you’ll ever meet! however not the kind of person you wanna mess with… u might end up crying..

CANCER - The Smart One. (6/22-7/22)
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being In long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out.

ARIES - The Irresistible One (3/21-4/19)
Nice Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good in bed… Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE.

TAURUS - The Cute One (4/20-5/20)
MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great at telling Stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.

LIBRA - The Promiscuous One (9/23-10/22)
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet.

VIRGO - The Partner for Life (8/23-9/22)
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in the you know where..!!! Not the kind of person you wanna mess with- you might end up crying.

Everything happens for a reason.

Somehow I feel like I was in a movie.
You know, a part when the girl turn on the radio and every song just the same. Song that made her remember her broken heart. Yeah, that kind of thing.
I thought that's just a piece of nonsense, but now, I believe that might be true. Well, I guess it's lil' different in my case though.
A friend of mine say this to me one time when I was seriously in a broken heart,

"Everything happens for a reason"

At first, I was amazed that those words hit me so bad. Because I was like 'Why this happening to me?' all the time. I thanked him to remind me to that proverb. Simple yet hits so hard.
Okay, I'm not that instantly believe and be happy just because of that though. But the weird thing is, everything tells me just the same. When I said everything, I really mean it.
Here is some 'weird' examples:
1. I was in a movie and there was a 'Knight and Day's trailer show up and suddenly the camera shoot Tom Cruise in focus mode and he said,

"Everything happens for a reason"

2. I woke up and check up my twitter. Suddenly my favorite author write this in twitter,

"Starting a chapter called 'Omnia Causa Fiunt'. Everything happens for a reason."

3. I fell a sleep in the afternoon and wake up exactly when a commentator in a football match -out of nowhere- said,

"Ya, everything happens for a reason"

My reaction always the same if I heard that sentence by coincidence, it's always,

"What? Are you guys making a fun of me? Okay, Who's the boss here? You did this in purpose, right? DO YOU???"

And I finally laugh my ass off. This may be God's way to tell me,

"Yea Chay, everything happens for a reason. You don't have to see it by now, but later won't be too long."

Amin